I always thought that i knew what love is and thought that i actually felt the feeling of falling in love. I thought that i loved all the guys i used to like before, i can say i used to like them but i was never in love with them, not even one bit. I guess i was infatuated when guys were actually really nice to me and when they entertain me. I realize now that i was too in love with the thought of being in love. Maybe it was because all my life i was in love with watching and reading cliche love stories, that's why i was rushing myself to be loved by someone from the opposite sex. i actually thought that all the things i felt was the actual feeling of falling in love with someone.
Not until now.......
Earlier this year i met this really amazing person who made me realize what love is and what was the real feeling of falling in love with someone.
He made me realize that "love is a dangerous game". Dangerous how you say? Well when you love someone you tend to do anything and everything for them, just to let them know how you feel. you'd do anything for that certain person that sometimes it just leads you to a broken heart. He made me feel that falling in love was actually the best and worst feeling that you will experience in your life.
I knew that my love for this person was true. Wanna know why? You know you really love someone when all you want is for that person to be happy, even if your not part of their happiness. You know you love them so much when you'd actually do things for them even if it means you'll have to get hurt. You know you love them when they're the only person you ever thought about at 3am. You know it's love when you can never see yourself not loving them in the future, even if you have met other people they were still the one who got your heart. You know it's love when you love them and they don't love you back like the way you feel for them but you won't give up even if it can tear you apart. You know it's love when all of the people around you tells you to stop because you don't deserve them and you'll find someone better. That's the thing it's not about who you deserve it's about who you want, who you need and who you love. You know it's love when you will stay up with them until past 4 in the morning just so you can talk to them even if your conversations never really made sense. You know you love them when you can't go a day without talking to them. You know you love them when you can't stay mad at them not even for a second. You know you really really love them that even if they break your heart for a million times they're still the one that you want, it was only ever theirs to break anyways. You know that your love is true when you stick by with that person even when you saw their dark side, good side, funny side, emotional side, jealous side (etc.) and that ever flaw and every imperfection never really stopped you from loving them. You know you actually love them when you are willing to risk things even if it means it may hurt you in the future.
Well these was all the reasons why i knew i love him and knew that it was true. Maybe it's kinda stupid to say that i'll wait for him even if it was a long shot but that's what i'm going to do. I may sound desperate and all but i really love him and that's the thing about love it'll make you do some crazy things.
